fairy kisses, eyelash wishes.

i always loved the way your breath mingled with your coffee when you were waiting for me on those icy days. your eyes were bluer than the winter sky and warmer than the sun… i couldn’t help smiling when i saw them.

Please talk to me. Open your eyes. Please open your eyes.

whenever i used to cry you’d brush your lips across my eyelids, leaving a trail of fairy kisses where my tears used to be. then you’d give me a bowl of ice cream and tell me so many jokes that i’d laugh until i started crying all over again.

I know you can hear me. You have to be able to hear me. Please…

i remember when you made me that jar of origami stars. you put all the colors of the rainbow in there except for green, because i never liked that. and you told me that it was really a jar of wishes. you said that i could make a wish on every single star, and when i ran out of stars you’d make more. you said i should always have as many wishes as i wanted. i told you that eyelash wishes are really the best kind, and you said that if i really wanted a jar of eyelashes you’d be happy to oblige.

I’m so sorry. I know it’s my fault. I should have been there, the roads were too icy to drive and I should have been there and I’m so sorry.

your eyes were so pretty on those icy days… i always wondered why they looked prettier in the cold.

I love you. Can you hear me? I love you. You know what I’ve been doing? I’ve been wishing on my eyelashes. Remember how you told me that eyelash wishes always come true? You have to wake up. Please. Before I run out of eyelashes.

the ice… your eyes were always so pretty in the ice. so pretty.

Oh God. Hey. No. Don’t do this.

so pretty…

God, no. No. Open your eyes, please, please, open your eyes. Talk to me, please, oh God, please, no, no, no, I can’t do this without you, I can’t—I can’t. Don’t you dare leave me. You can’t let go, you have to wake up, please

don’t leave me.

Hey—hey… your eyelids are moving. I know I’m not imagining that, I know you can hear me, say something. Please. Say anything.’

‘…Mmph. Don’t tell me what to do. I can leave you if I want.’

‘Jesus fucking Christ. Oh, God—shit. Shit shit shit.’

‘Hi to you too.’

‘Hi. I love you.’

‘I love you too. Don’t cry.’

‘I knew you’d wake up. God. I knew you’d wake up.’

‘Mhm… Of course, silly. Eyelash wishes always come true.’

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