make a wish

i) Her mirror is wrong. It reflects her backwards, the way other people see her; but she really doesn’t want to know how other people see her.

ii) There are dead flowers in the vase next to her bed. She picked them one day in an attempt to cheer herself up, but now they’re gone and there’s nothing to replace them with. So she leaves them there, hoping they make her room seem artistic.

iii) Endings scare her more than anything. When she sees something beautiful she cries, because what’s the point in being beautiful when you’re just going to disappear? She thinks that nothing matters, and nothing ever will.

stop. breathe. start over.

i) She sits by the open window every night and listens to the stars twinkle.

ii) She catches fireflies in the backyard, just like she did when she was a child. She makes wishes on stars and dandelions and eyelashes, and she plants new flowers. Sometimes, she thinks, beautiful things will just never disappear.

iii) Tomorrow she’s going to watch the sun rise and the moon set. And she’s going to realize that ‘end’ and ‘beginning’ can sometimes mean the same thing.

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6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. doormouse
    Jul 17, 2010 @ 04:07:53

    stunning.

    Reply

  2. gallowaygrave
    Jul 17, 2010 @ 07:05:18

    Bimbled here from tagsurfer at WP; did you write this especially for me? I have just ditched a blog where I posted a novella because I feel wrung out with nothing new to say. But the end will be a begining of time to reflect, listen to the stars… Thanks

    Reply

    • aprilwednesday
      Jul 17, 2010 @ 13:09:42

      Thanks so much for the comment! I’m glad this could connect with you. And if you ever decide to start up your blog again, I’d love to check it out! :)

      Reply

  3. Jason
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 06:04:00

    I like this and I think you might like some Galician and Portuguese writing. Look up Rosalia de Castro, especially the Galician Songs or Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet.

    There is a quality of melancholy on this Atlantic coast called Saudade. You might even find some music you like and if you get into it you can read Ramón Piñeiro and discover the philosophy of Saudade!

    Reply

    • aprilwednesday
      Jul 21, 2010 @ 17:43:30

      Thanks for the recommendations, I’ll definitely look them up! And I read a little bit about Saudade on wikipedia, it’s really interesting. I’d definitely like to learn more about it!

      Reply

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