tiny sinking feeling

i have this tiny sinking feeling that maybe i might love you.

oh.

is that going to be problem, do you think?

i’m sure we can work around it.

what if i don’t want to work around it?

then maybe it’s a problem.

why can’t we talk about it?

isn’t that what we’re doing?

it’s not quite what i had in mind.

oh.

you keep saying that.

what do you want me to say?

tell me why you don’t love me.

i think i like you too much to love you.

i don’t get it.

it’s just… people are so fragile. you know? there’s a million things that could happen to you. you could walk off one day and never come back. and i would never see your eyes or hear your laugh or smell your hair. and then there’s spiders.

…spiders?

if you died who would kill the spiders in my bedroom?

what does that have to do with me loving you?

i don’t know. am i rambling?

maybe. keep going.

i’m scared that i’ll freak you out.

why?

because i want to tell you that i don’t love you. i love the way you smile and i love the things you talk about and i love the way you look at me like i’m the only person in the world and i love the sound of your voice but i don’t… um… i don’t…

what?

crap.

what is it?

i have this tiny sinking feeling that maybe i might love you too.

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Aki
    Jul 07, 2010 @ 17:22:56

    I enjoyed reading it! x

    Reply

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